I like to think that I know myself pretty well. I’m a reflective person who spends time actively thinking back on my motivations and choices. I like to get to the root of my behaviors and understand why I do the things I do. This isn’t a difficult task. Except when it is. If you’ve ever spent any time at all reflecting on the state of your heart, you know that sometimes we run up against a blind spot. Something that we’ve not noticed about ourselves. It could be good or bad, but it’s simply an area that we aren’t aware of. Maybe it’s the way we treat certain people in our lives. Why we behave a certain way in groups of people or why we have specific habits. We can think we know ourselves pretty well, but the truth of the matter is, no one knows us better than God. He knows the blindspots before we ever discover them.
I love how the psalmist points out in this psalm that God knows what we will speak even before a word is on our tongue and perceives our thoughts from afar. We are reminded that we can’t hide from God and that He created us and knew us before we were born. How amazing it is to know that God, who is the creator of the world and ruler of the heavens, would know our hearts and souls. The psalmist ends his prayer pleading for God to search his heart and lead him in the way he should go.
This prayer reminded me that even though it’s great to be reflective and try to understand my heart, it’s greater still to go to the God who knows me better than I know myself. How wonderful to ask God to search my heart and make known my sins, to show me the opportunities for growth in Him, and to lead me in the choices that will bring glory to His name. He knows the blindspots I have in my life and His wisdom is greater than mine. I pray that we spend time seeking His will and His wisdom in all that we think, say, and do. Let us praise His name and recognize His greatness.